Wednesday, October 1, 2008
love and care (why does GP have crime and punishment if this was what the world was about)
caring for a person really makes the peron capable of doing things never before possible... iem not talking about lifting 500kg of rock, or slaying a rex with bare fists...
in other words, it is more like doing something that is within human capability and yet just out of the reach of one's mental abilities...
for example... finding yourself having a paper since morning, ending around 10... then spending time around till 12.30, and waiting from then till 4. that's over 6 hours of waiting (even though he had material to study, it's an awful long time to be spending alone =X)
i kinda do it differently... she sparks this unconditional love within me, and from then, everything can be done (except areas that i have never had any experience before, and yet i know that some people will view it negatively)
i can go without food and yet not feel hungry... (actually i did it for myself as well, but i'll always place her value *priceless* before that of material pleasure...)
just to see you happy... makes me feel warm and happy myself...
sure, i may be jealous when you get together with another guy, but... i do love you... and i usually dont know the guy... whatif you're unhappy... i can't help but worry for you...
maybe i'm just too much of a burden... maybe i shouldnt intrude into your life... but i am your shield, your fortress of a safe haven... or am i?
well... iem actually hoping you call me... first thing tomorrow once you wake up... but... i shall feel it is unlikely... in the end i'll still end up being the one to contact you...
oh well...
Time Of Death* 1:45 AM
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