Monday, October 27, 2008
BACK~~!
piang... never knew pw was so fun... my pw group is actually really a group of really nice people... they all sing the same song (literally) and we've been through so much together... we've roughed it out, and even, i think, our group actually doesnt dread PW meeting =D it's just like a congretion of friends!!! we're actually from many different cliques, but we're a formula for epic proportions!
today, we managed to procure our materials, and even finalised what was in and what was out. i'll have to start practicing soon T.T tuesday n wed are once more, and thursday is the final!!
oh and chinese exams are coming too... i think i'll actually read through the text 1 day before.
my nee-san now contacts me so much lesser... so much... and i rarely call her too... guess it's time to move on for everyone... she's probably having a horrible time still looking for her one true love. my heart still twitches when i think of her... so pure... so innocent... and forever beautiful and adorable in my mind... BUT! she's got a life.
anyway, BATAM OCIP!!! CHINA TRIP!!! XXD
24~27th november! batam time! we're heading over to help out the orphans... it's a mix of feelings... we're supposed to be helping others, but we're still making use of their misfortune to go shipping overseas... ahh heck, at least we're helping, and as long as we do so continously we're cool =D
china trip!! 30th ~ 6/7 December! china time! going with 3 pw members, one lively gal, and many others! i know i'm looking forward to checking out the river. XXD but lessons are gonna be omg wtf bbq hahaha! still, cold weather!!! i'm so gonna share a room with my chinese class friend XXD
leadership training... WTF??? 8 to 5 THE SCHOOL IS NUTS!!! the day started normal, us actually getting along. no choice as i knew no one there, and i didnt have the heart to force jessie to come, and i'd rather she'd be resting then coming here for nuts... i mean, one of us is enough man. anyway, i had to ask my previous lunchdude if i could sit with him. what crap man.
later, they shuffled the groups. no communication math problem sum solving. OMG WTF! i screwed uP! T.T i felt so so so so so bad! but luckily i apologised and my group accepted it T.T some other guy made a larger mistake XXD anyway, by 2, we were all toast. literally. toast. and by 4, burnt. i found myself sleeping once every 5 minutes, not remembering the talk at all... then i realised how amazaing these teachers were. they did an activity that had completely no relevance to their talk. and it was just an energizer. their tolerance was amazing, and their handling is precise. =D
haha... longer post todae eh? i hope to get sangokushi taisen ten soon... T.T i wanna play, for free! XXD kkayz, logging off, and timothy, i know u saw this! whether u wanna share me or not is up to you! i told you you'd know someday =P
kk nitex!!
Time Of Death* 2:15 AM
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Tuesday, October 14, 2008
how does it feel. when you care for someone. when you're trying to help the person. and the person lashes out at you.
" Zzz the way you talk makes me FUCKING ANNOYED PLEASE I'M JUST HAVING A HECK OF PROBLEMS CAN YOU FOR ONCE STOP BOTHERING ME PLEASE?! "
all the time i've been a bother to you. i try to help. maybe it's true i am more of a bother.
all i want is to be a good nii-san. i just want you happy. and it's not even because i love you. i know i cant. my love hurts both of us. i try to forget. but nee-san. you wanted me to be your brother. and so i try my best. in the end...
i'm just a bother.
nee-san. start thinking about your words before you use them. THOSE WORDS STING.
words. alike to feelings, they are immaterial. they can hurt. nee-san... you can only see when others are hurting you. you see them through yourself... nee-san... you never fully understood me that's what you said.
on the other hand... did you really try...?
my high tolerence doesnt mean i DONT FEEL IT. those words really hurt. why... why do you have to keep hurting me. all i want is to be a good brother... all i want is to help you along...
yeah... you're just going to say " if i hurt you so much then just go. " you know what. that message you send to everyone, it shows them how little you care. it shows them how little you mean to them.
nee-san... i... shouldnt be here any more... words once said cant be taken back... and nee-san wants me gone. nee-san wants me to get lost...
i annoy nee-san.
i'm leaving, nee-san. for even as a brother, you fail to understand me. nee-san... you constantly lose sight of the things that are precious to you, and take them for granted easily... please take more care of your new found love(s)
nee-san... i shall stop bothering you. good bye nee-san... and this time maybe it's not just for once, but forever.
nee-san... take care... i still care for you... but it seems you dont need me to help. any more. ever.
but nee-san? watch your words... think them through before you actualy say them.
do actions, but never live to regret them.
nee-san... gomenasai. bye.
Time Of Death* 5:40 PM
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Tuesday, October 7, 2008
LAST DAY OF PROMOes MY TEACHER SENT TO ME
ONE BOX OF GREEN PENS
TWO BIG TRASHBIN CANS
THREE STACKS OF PAPER
FOUR SHARPENED RAPIERS
FIVE SICK SLAVE DRIVERS
SIX SUITS FOR DIVERS
AND A BIG. FAT. FAIL!
ALL THE TIME WE CRY,
BEFORE WE REALLY DIE,
IN THE END FAIL IS FAIL CANNOT CHANGE LIAO!
XD!!!
promoes are amazing mugger power... last 3 days consecutively kept sleeping at 5! in e morning!
am i like weird? XD
everyone around me seems to lighten up... that's real nice...
*no sacarstic meaning XD*
anyhow, what kind of ball do thay use while playing soccer in the olympics for the disabled?
highlight the area inbetween the arrows for answer!
-->>> PARABOLA <<<--
haha... time to start! lets go baby lets go baby~~!
regards to nee-san, wings, n everyone who cares!
minasann~ gambatte~!
Time Of Death* 4:30 PM
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Wednesday, October 1, 2008
love and care (why does GP have crime and punishment if this was what the world was about)
caring for a person really makes the peron capable of doing things never before possible... iem not talking about lifting 500kg of rock, or slaying a rex with bare fists...
in other words, it is more like doing something that is within human capability and yet just out of the reach of one's mental abilities...
for example... finding yourself having a paper since morning, ending around 10... then spending time around till 12.30, and waiting from then till 4. that's over 6 hours of waiting (even though he had material to study, it's an awful long time to be spending alone =X)
i kinda do it differently... she sparks this unconditional love within me, and from then, everything can be done (except areas that i have never had any experience before, and yet i know that some people will view it negatively)
i can go without food and yet not feel hungry... (actually i did it for myself as well, but i'll always place her value *priceless* before that of material pleasure...)
just to see you happy... makes me feel warm and happy myself...
sure, i may be jealous when you get together with another guy, but... i do love you... and i usually dont know the guy... whatif you're unhappy... i can't help but worry for you...
maybe i'm just too much of a burden... maybe i shouldnt intrude into your life... but i am your shield, your fortress of a safe haven... or am i?
well... iem actually hoping you call me... first thing tomorrow once you wake up... but... i shall feel it is unlikely... in the end i'll still end up being the one to contact you...
oh well...
Time Of Death* 1:45 AM
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