Saturday, September 6, 2008
eww... people in this world... maybe death should be brought upon all of mankind, as when god created apocalypse...
how do you love someone wholeheartedly, care for the person?
that alone is a feat of man.
how do you perform so, when you know the person has feelings for someone other than yourself?
when all you demand is but a hint of loyalty, but all is but truth?
if there was a way of assuring my heart, it would be yours.
i'm still unstable, and i'm even more so...
you're in trouble, you're having problems...
i'm insensitively calling you, you're insensitively letting me go on.
i'm worried, you never ever tell me the whole picture.
i'm supposed to understand even though there is nothing i know about it.
i try.
today, i missed you since the moment i woke up.
the longer you are from me, the deeper my heart delves into thy self.
i call, and you're having fun.
but i'm inconvinienced, as you are.
halfway through, you call, but with the mindset to hang up really soon
i needed to stop too, so we but only exchanged few words.
i miss you.
at night, i call, only to receive the message that you're having fun.
and i'm bothering you.
but it happens, and i understand.
if i'm having the same thing, i would have expected you too as well
somehow, i fear it wouldnt work.
later, i stay up for your one message.
i call to clarify my doubts of your feelings.
but you are in trouble.
and it was as though i was a persistent idiot that wanted to pester you
calling you non-stop
making matters worse
you even had a friend step in our buisness.
why... it was just the two of us... why did you bring in someone else...
it felt like i was really useless,
it felt like i was made to be insensitive.
you don't, ever tell me what exactly is happening.
i never understand completely your problems.
you dont care about mine.
am i really that useless that someone else has to explain your intentions...?
and so... somehow... i feel really... really... sad...
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i went out today.
supposedly it was for studying, and i brought math
lesson #1:
math sucks for a starter to revision.
i was with two friends. they were always emotional people.
sometimes it's hard to be with one of them.
he tells things i can't help but just find...
slightly childish...
he goes on about the same things over and over,
and i lead him on.
the other is slightly more mature yet immature at the same time.
he's wallowing in his own problems, half of which are self created.
lesson #2:
don't ever visit esplanade with 2 emotionally challenged friends.
first time to esplanade library (ain't i outdated)
i ended up playing the entire day instead.
how productive.
anyway, i'm beat.
tomorrow's a long day~
long live code geass
have fun all...
good night my dearest.
good night my friends.
LET A NEW DAY BEGIN
Time Of Death* 1:43 AM
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