Sunday, August 31, 2008
Finally~ i can be sure about something... i love her. maybe not in the way that was previously existant between us... but new is always better, or so it should be XD sorry to all those who are somehow affected by this...
she's having lots of problems, lots of stress and sometimes pain from her previous relationships... but she has friends. at least it helps to share the pain with people that you actually know =x
Matsuri~
hontou gomen, mina-san... i was so emo and non-social T.T always emo down there, dragging my little waloli girl with me... sorry~
to all the people i got to knew, i may not really know you well right now, but it was absolutely such a good feeling to actually be able to mix in with people... meeting new people is always pretty cool, especially with all the new things that you can find out~! next time if i actually go i'll try to be more hyper XD
*though it's really hard when she's around, cause she makes me really change sometimes XD
to my friends, sorry i haven't been there for you. you've asked me out countless times, only to find that iem actually busy with stuff... and i never once explained it to you. iem so sorry, all i can say is good luck for the promoes, and i'll be there as often as i can for you...
okies, here's to the world, to the universal matters, and to the fact that my wish band would fall off soon and i get wishes XD
valkarian signing OFF~
Time Of Death* 11:02 AM
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Friday, August 29, 2008
time passes me by, and even before i knew it, promotional exams are but 4 weeks away... that's in total a mere 28 days; 672 hours; 40320 minutes; 2419200 seconds... time is but only so forgiving, and even as it may seem to last, it starts to trickle away rapidly...
canopy walk~~!! ._.
todae went with my xiaojie and leonard to the famous treetop walks! man it was long (i really didnt feel the stretch though) and really messy, but it was a nice view, except for the end part where we had to climb up mount faber XD slopes upon slopes upon slopes how completely ghey is that? but it was pretty nice... they actually have people volunteering from national park walking the trail telling people the rules T.T no sleeping along henderson waves!!
i'm still a little bit phobic about going into another relationship... especially when it's with the same person... dont get me wrong, i do so love her so very much, but... when you've actually been through previous breakups (plural) and can never be sure about your feelings, how do you place trust in the one you so long to trust?
also... it's not her i'm worried about... it's me... will i actually be able to hold myself firm? will i relapse into the sickening self pitying self that i once was? will my life as a person who is capable of bringing laughter actually end? i dont know... but once thing doesnt change.
i love you. it doesnt change. but it feels different somehow, but i'm sure on that point.
Teachers' DAY!
it was really pretty cool! the mc for my school's celebration was so out of it that everything he said just happened to sound sacarstic XXD went back to my alma mater, not the real one. ends up that everyone knew that there was to be a meeting back at school, efficiently leaving me out T.T met one teacher, guess it works =P
anyhow, to all my friends, have a great day! sorry i had to go off~!
to my leige, i only await your command =D
to every body in the world, have fun!
Time Of Death* 11:06 PM
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Sunday, August 24, 2008
guess this is actually my first serious blog, but who knows whether it'll last or not...?
23rd august... and today it's the 24th... even as we go about our everyday lives, time continually slips past us... eight months in the year of 2008, and yet i still remember the 1st of january...
at yet another person, a year and more between us, yet how many of those days we spent were true..? already before you left me in person, your heart has disappeared... like a puzzle piece, once that was once there is now but a gaping hole. and just on the 23rd, all that i previously believed and masked suddenly came crashing down...
all i wanted was to be there for you, to help you... to actually watch from rather afar while you continually find your other happiness... but i drew too close... and ended up hurting myself... the amusing part is where i actually still want to continue doing it...
maybe i'm just weird... maybe it just me... but... never once have i actually believed in turning anyother direction... little did i know i meant only that much to you...
anyhow, thank you for all you've done.
thank you for that once year of emotions.
those happy moments where we shared
those angry moments of silent frustrations
those sad moments of tears.
and also crazy moments of madness.
i might move on... maybe not... let time tell...
to my friends, i finally have a blog! how amazing =P promos are around the corner, so why doesnt everyone GAMBATTE *forgive my mix of jap* life is short but most if it is filled like a sweet, where the core is filled with the syrup of your favourite kind... lets see who can get to the center of the candy!!
to everyone. watch the fireworks. they rise in a burst of glory, majestic and high, but eventually they explode and disappear. after their once shot at glory, all they leave is smoke and a distant memory. grab hold of the glory, and be remembered for the time when you lit up someone's life!
Time Of Death* 1:18 PM
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